The Sharpest Lives

playlist position: 87 - Breaking Dawn Book Two (5) #14
artist: My Chemical Romance
album: The Black Parade
track number: 4/13
year: 2006
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Breaking Dawn: Book Two – Chapter15
Two weeks to a day, the days flying by. Her life speeding by in fast-forward. How many days did that give her, if she was counting to forty? Four? It took me a minute to figure out how to swallow.
“You okay?” she asked.
I nodded, not really sure how my voice would come out.
Edward’s face was turned away from us as he listened to my thoughts, but I could see his reflection in the glass wall. He was the burning man again.

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Well, it rains and it pours
When you're out on your own
If I crash on the couch
Can I sleep in my clothes?
'Cause I've spent the night dancing
I'm drunk, I suppose
If it looks like I'm laughing
I'm really just asking to leave

This alone
You're in time for the show
You're the one that I need
I'm the one that you loathe
You can watch me corrode like a beast in repose
'Cause I love all the poison
Away with the boys in the band

I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

There's a place in the dark where the animals go
You can take off your skin in the cannibal glow
Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands
Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, Romeo

I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

This Is How I Disappear

playlist position: 73 - Eclipse (3) #19b
artist: My Chemical Romance
album: The Black Parade
track number: 3/13
year: 2006
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Eclipse – Epilogue - Jacob's perspective
Come home when you can. The words were faint, trailing off into blank emptiness as he left, too. And I was alone.
So much better. Now I could hear the faint rustle of the matted leaves beneath my toenails, the whisper of an owl’s wings above me, the ocean—far, far in the west—moaning against the beach. Hear this, and nothing more. Feel nothing but speed, nothing but the pull of muscle, sinew, and bone, working together in harmony as the miles disappeared behind me.
If the silence in my head lasted, I would never go back. I wouldn’t be the first one to choose this form over the other. Maybe, if I ran far enough away, I would never have to hear again...
I pushed my legs faster, letting Jacob Black disappear behind me.

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Go

To un-explain the unforgivable

Drain all the blood and give the kids a show

By streetlight this dark night

A seance down below

There're things that I have done

You never should ever know

And without you is how I disappear

And live my life alone forever now

And without you is how I disappear

And live my life alone forever now

Who walks among the famous living dead

Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed

And if you could talk to me

Tell me if it's so

That all the good girls go to heaven

Well, heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear

And live my life alone forever now

And without you is how I disappear

And live my life alone forever now

Can you hear me cry out to you?

Words I thought I'd choke on figure out

I'm really not so with you anymore

I'm just a ghost

So I can't hurt you anymore

So I can't hurt you anymore

And now you wanna see how far down I can sink?

Let me go, fuck

So you can
Well, now so you can

I'm so far away from you

Well, now so you can

And without you is how I disappear

And without you is how I disappear

Whoa whoa (And without you is how I disappear)

Whoa whoa (And without you is how, is how, is how)

Forever, forever now

Sleep

playlist position: 72 - Eclipse (3) #19b
artist: My Chemical Romance
album: The Black Parade
track number: 10/13
year: 2006
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Eclipse – Epilogue - Jacob's perspective
Come home when you can. The words were faint, trailing off into blank emptiness as he left, too. And I was alone.
So much better. Now I could hear the faint rustle of the matted leaves beneath my toenails, the whisper of an owl’s wings above me, the ocean—far, far in the west—moaning against the beach. Hear this, and nothing more. Feel nothing but speed, nothing but the pull of muscle, sinew, and bone, working together in harmony as the miles disappeared behind me.
If the silence in my head lasted, I would never go back. I wouldn’t be the first one to choose this form over the other. Maybe, if I ran far enough away, I would never have to hear again...
I pushed my legs faster, letting Jacob Black disappear behind me.

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"Like last night, they are not like tremors, they are worse than tremors, they are these terrors. And it's like, it feels like as if somebody was gripping my throat and squeezing and..."

Some say, now suffer all the children
And walk away a savior
Or a madman and polluted
From gutter institutions
Don't you breathe for me
Undeserving of your sympathy
'Cause there ain't no way that I'm sorry for what I did

And through it all
How could you cry for me?
'Cause I don't feel bad about it
So shut your eyes
Kiss me goodbye
And sleep
Just sleep

The hardest part is letting go of your dreams

A drink for the horror that I'm in
For the good guys and the bad guys
For the monsters that I've been
Three cheers for tyranny
Unapologetic apathy
'Cause there ain't no way that I'm coming back again

And through it all
How could you cry for me?
'Cause I don't feel bad about it
So shut your eyes
Kiss me goodbye
And sleep
Just sleep

The hardest part's the awful things that I've seen

"...Sometimes I see flames. And sometimes I see people that I love dying and... it's always..."

Just sleep
Just sleep
Just sleep
Just sleep
Just sleep
Just sleep

Wake up

"And I can't... I can't ever wake up."

I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

playlist position: 4 - Twilight (1) #4
artist: My Chemical Romance
album: Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge
track number: 5/13
year: 2004
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Twilight - Chapter 5
"What if I'm not the superhero? What if I'm the bad guy?"

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Well, if you wanted honesty
That's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you
That it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words
But still don't know what it means (I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook
For the last time take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book
But the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now (I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this
I'm okay (Trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay (Okay)