Overweight

playlist position: 54 - Eclipse (3) #3
artist: Blue October
album: Foiled
track number: 8/15
year: 2006
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Eclipse – Chapter 1 - Jacob's perspective
“Please just listen for a minute. This is so much more important than some whim to drop in on an old
friend. Jacob is in pain.” My voice distorted around the word. “I can’t not try to help him—I can’t give up on him now, when he needs me. Just because he’s not human all the time... Well, he was there for me when I was... not so human myself. You don’t know what it was like...” I hesitated. Edward’s arms were rigid around me; his hands were in fists now, the tendons standing out. “If Jacob hadn’t helped me... I’m not sure what you would have come home to. I owe him better than this, Edward.”

_________________________

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long? (Ha)
(Excuse me)

I want to carry a piece of who I was before
So when I hit the wall, I really hit the wall
I want to tear away the death again (Death again)
A whiter shade of fucking meth again (Meth again)
I want to stick to clues
I want to come unglued
I want to shape the world to fit the way you move
Oh, should I listen for a dress size?

I owned up, I've grown up
Do you remember me?
I showed up and so what if I'm the used-to-be
I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry I was sorry
But I'm happy that you're happy
This is no longer about me

Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes
Let him be you through your beautiful cries
Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies
Live your life just like a dream
Without the pain of goodbyes (Goodbye)

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long?

I been a drunk, disrespectful little street punk
Unlock the back of my trunk
You see, you take this bat
And bash my head into the street again (Street again)
No one's around, so I keep beating it (Yeah)

Pull my hair back, look me in the eye
There's a self-destructive meaning in the bleeding of a guy
It's the guilt of what reality has given me (Reality) (Given me)
Making sense of all mistakes and my stupidity

And when you're sick, you seem to think you've failed eternally
And that the people you let in are only crumbling (Crumbling)
When you're sick of faking life in this recovery
When my decision paved the road that lies in front of me

So to my friends that even call but I don't call back (Call back)
I want you deep inside my heart upon a hill (In my heart, yeah)
It seems to hide sometimes and run away and wonder
I'm really sick of saying sorry but I will

Ever carried the weight of another? (When I needed you)
For how long? (Where were you? Where were you?)
I walk as far as they need to recover
For how long? (Where were you?)

But are we scared to take the ride?
Or dare to look inside?
I'm floating far away (Far away)
I'm floating far away (Whoa)
I'm floating far away (So far away)
(Leaving home)
I'm floating far away

I want to learn to walk with others as an equal
I want to treat the ones who love me with respect (Floating far away)
I want to tell the world I'll give them all a piggyback
And try to take away my negative effect (Floating far away)
I want to kiss a girl and know I'll never lie again
I want to call my dad and tell him that I care
I want to let my brother know he saved my life a thousand times
Throughout the years he's been my friend who's always there

Floating far away
Floating far away
Floating far away

Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?

Clocks

playlist position: 53 - Eclipse (3) #2
artist: Coldplay
album: A Rush of Blood to the Head
track number: 5/11
year: 2002
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Eclipse – Chapter 1
“I thought the timing was still undecided,” Edward reminded me softly. “You might enjoy a semester or two of college. There are a lot of human experiences you’ve never had.”
“I’ll get to those afterward.”
“They won’t be human experiences afterward. You don’t get a second chance at humanity, Bella.”

_________________________

Lights go out and I can't be saved
Tides that I tried to swim against
You've put me down upon my knees
Oh, I beg, I beg and plead
Singing
'Come out of things unsaid'
Shoot an apple of my head
And a trouble that can't be named
Tigers waiting to be tamed
Singing you are, you are

Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks
Gonna come back and take you home
I could not stop
That you now know
Singing 'Come out upon my seas'
Curse missed opportunities
Am I a part of the cure
Or am I part of the disease?

Singing 'You are'
You are
You are
You are
You are
You are

And nothing else compares
Oh no, nothing else compares
And nothing else compares

You are

Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go
Home, home, where I wanted to go

Mexican Standoff

playlist position: 52 - Eclipse (3) #1
artist: Elbow
album: Leaders of the Free World
track number: 7/11
year: 2005
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Eclipse – Chapter 1 - Jacob's perspective
"What part of 'mortal enemies' is too complicated for you...?"

_________________________

Shifting my weight now from foot to foot
What did she see in this man?
I'm not superstitious
But if I can get this ball in the basket
Then he'll wake up dead

Your sweet reassurances don't change the fact
That he's better looking than me
Yet he'd look ideal 'neath the wheels of a car
Oh, Mexican standoff
I wish I was hard, yeah

Your sweet reassurances don't change the fact
That he's better looking than me
Yet he'd look ideal 'neath the wheels of a car
Oh, Mexican standoff
I wish I was hard

The Reason

playlist position: 51 - New Moon alternates (2b) #14
artist: Hoobastank
album: The Reason
track number: 8/12
year: 2003
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New Moon – Chapter 23 - Edward's perspective
"I only left you in the first place because I wanted you to have a chance at a normal, happy, human life. I could see what I was doing to you—keeping you constantly on the edge of danger, taking you away from the world you belonged in, risking your life every moment I was with you. So I had to try. I had to do something, and it seemed like leaving was the only way. If I hadn't thought you would be better off, I could have never made myself leave. I'm much too selfish. Only you could be more important than what I wanted... what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you, and I know I'll never be strong enough to leave again."

_________________________

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

White Flag

playlist position: 50 - New Moon alternates (2b) #13
artist: Dido
album: Life For Rent
track number:  1/12
year: 2003
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New Moon – Chapter 20
I'd never seen anything more beautiful—even as I ran, gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.

_________________________

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
Or tell you that
But if I didn't say it, well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
Destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of 'it's over'
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass and hold my tongue
And you will think that I've moved on

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Unintended

playlist position: 49 - New Moon alternates (2b) #12
artist: Muse
album: Showbiz
track number: 6/12
year: 1999
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New Moon – Chapter 16

I couldn't imagine my life without Jacob now—I cringed away from the idea of even trying to imagine
that. Somehow, he'd become essential to my survival. But to leave things the way they were… was that cruel, as Mike had accused?
I remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother. I realized now that all I really wanted was a claim on him. It didn't feel brotherly when he held me like this. It just felt nice—warm and comforting and familiar. Safe. Jacob was a safe harbor.
I could stake a claim. I had that much within my power.

_________________________

You could be my unintended choice
To live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces
Of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended choice
To live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces
Of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces
Of the life I had before
Before you

I Miss You

playlist position: 48 - New Moon alternates (2b) #11
artist: Blink-182
album: Blink-182
track number: 3/14
year: 2003
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New Moon – Chapter 15
"Bella."
I smiled and exhaled.
Yes? I didn't answer out loud, for fear that the sound of my voice would shatter the beautiful illusion. He sounded so real, so close. It was only when he was disapproving like this that I could hear the true memory of his voice--the velvet texture and the musical intonation that made up the most perfect of all voices.
"Don't do this," he pleaded.
You wanted me to be human, I reminded him. Well, watch me.
"Please. For me."
But you won't stay with me any other way.
"Please." It was just a whisper in the blowing rain that tossed my hair and drenched my clothes--making me as wet as if this were my second jump of the day.

_________________________

(I miss you, miss you)

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night, we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop the pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

I miss you (miss you, miss you)
(I miss you, miss you)